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EAS

Posted on by iamsunnyd

So yesterday, I was gonna say tonmday but its a brand new day. I had a meeting with employee advisor services to seek help for everything that I have been going thru. Let me just say, I had no faith in this done to my visit a few years back.

They basically give you the run down on how things work, how they assist in getting you info on services that could help.

The lady really made me feel connected. I wish I could just talk to her. But of course I have to go elsewhere. But her advice and listening skills made me feel unjudged, and comfortable to speak my feelings. Needless to say I hope whoever I find is similar to her.

I felt a little better after talking to her.

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So

Posted on by iamsunnyd

So just an update, I haven’t mediated since the first 2 days I started. Idk I tried but didn’t seem like it worked for me. Because being an emotional mess, I’m horny all the time. Lol 😂🤷🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️.

I debating on getting a buddy, but I think that may be good and bad. My headaches have seemed to slow down from having them everyday and/or waking up with a full blown migraines.

Court dates looming, medical follows and ugh! Part of me wants it all over or to pretend it never happened but it did.

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Quotes on Finding Yourself

Posted on by iamsunnyd

So I was watching an interview with the talent and beautiful Phylicia Rashad. She said someone said to her this:

“An image can be broken, try and find out who you really are.”

That spoke to me tremendously. That will the quote I have in my mind when I meditate tonight.

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Figured I’d Start Meditating

Posted on by iamsunnyd

The other day I thought to myself maybe I should try mediating. My stress levels are high, since I’m epileptic and my right side of my brain has been showing seizure activity I have been places on meds. Now the meds may not work, because my childhood is proof of that, and most likely its stress related I need to find was to help with stop stressing.

Can’t hurt right?

So I tried this meditation video and idk if them talking does it for me. When the guy talked it kept scaring me, but then it again since it was my first time. I did it for 20 minutes tho. I feel way more relaxed tho. Tomorrow I will try for the whole 30 minutes.

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In a weird mood

Posted on by iamsunnyd

I keep crying…. I really am sitting her in tears because I can’t trust myself to protect my own heart.

That’s sad. I feel I can’t trust anyone or their intentions as it relates to me. I don’t wanna feel like this.