Posted in Personal, Poetry

That’s Me

Defeated,
Broken,
Overwhelmed,
That’s me,
Searching for my voice,
Searching for validation,
Tears roll,
PSTD as set in on me,
I open my mouth but words won’t come out,
I’m search for words and yet searching for me,
looking in the mirror but I can’t seem to see,
unrecognizable,
to shattered to see,
somehow I lost me,
I smile
I laugh
But I’m dying and no one sees,
desperately seeking validation because my feelings don’t seems to be free,
tears still flows my eyes swollen you see,
my mind seems to be playing tricks on me,
dismissed,
discarded,
broken,
that’s me,
I drowning in a series of moments you see,
can’t seem to find what I’m seeking you see,
validation never comes cuz I’m crazy you see?
my mind playing tricks and I can’t protect me,
heart breaking,
just want acceptance you see?
I know I can only find it in me,
its hurting,
I’m aching to get back to me..

Posted in Personal, Thoughts

New Year…

When we tell ourselves we are going to stop allowing certain things and then you end up going against the grain. Went thru an array of emotions last night. I felt so defeated and overwhelmed. I didn’t have it in me to fight. Tears fell and I wanted to scream but it was pointless, because of course I still search for validation when it comes to my feelings. Like I know I have ever reason to feel how I do, but when everyone around me seems oblivious or show to care about the situation I’m in my head wondering if I’m okay with thinking about how if I should feel how I feel about it.

Being hurt, disrespected and defeated I had no say in my own house so I just shut down. No peace in sight…. like how you walk around on eggshells when you invited this folks and can’t just shut everything down for the night and just be alone?

I definitely need to work on me a little hard. Why do I constantly seek validation of my feelings?

I started off the year all wrong, or maybe somehow I can turn this lesson into a blessing?

Posted in GFT Radio, men, opinions, Personal, relationships, Thoughts, Uncategorized, women

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Posted in men, mood, Quotes, random, Reflection, relationships, Thoughts, Uncategorized, women

Let someone love you…

“Let someone love you the way you are – as flawed as you might be, as unattractive as you sometimes feel, and as unaccomplished as you think you are. To believe that you must hide all the parts of you that are broken, out of fear that someone else is incapable of loving what is less than perfect, is to believe that sunlight is incapable of entering a broken window and illuminating a dark room.” ~ Mark Hack

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