Posted in GFT Radio, Uncategorized

New Day….Same Time

So yes we have changed the day we do out podcast so join us tonight at 10pm…

🚨 “Love Me Some ME” 🚨

Self Love and personal pleasure, aka Masturbation, is an essential tool to learning your body, and what pleases it. Do you explore your body? Do you find it challenging? Join the conversation as we discuss various ways you can Love and Pleasure yourself!

– Are you relying, too much, on others to bring you pleasure
– What turns you on and how does it affect your solo play
– Masturbation through the 5 Senses, a preview

We know you don’t want to miss this one! Join the conversation by calling 657-383-1155, phone lines open at 10:15pm. You can also tweet us @gft_radio and let your voice be heard!

Posted in music, Music Mondays

Music Mondays: Big Dreams Dirty Game & Killah Cal

Posted in Thoughts

Out My Head and In Words

Well this is as good as any place to vent and get these thoughts outside of my head. Today I woke up in a funk, between trivial shit and then missing my mom. I sat back and thought why am I feeling the way I have been when I get in these funks. I’m too emotional, I take certain things way too personal. I’m caught up feeling things I haven’t allowed myself to feel. The fact that I cannot control these array of emotions, brings me deeper into this funk. I get to the point where I don’t want to be seen, heard or anything. I don’t want to feel anything. I wish often that I was void of emotions because at times I feel weak. Today, I wanted to cry twice, but I won’t allow myself to. Both times a particular song played and they reminded me of my mom. I promptly turned the song off and on to something more upbeat.

As I type this right now, my emotion is blah mixed with done. I hate feeling like this. I know I’m simply masking the emotion of feeling helpless. I want to take 3 steps back but I seem to leap forward more into this depression. I thought I beat this, but I find myself looking for someone to give me back my happiness. I know that is so wrong on many levels. I used to make myself happy. I feel like when my mom passed a part of me did as well. I’m just tryna figure out how to I get that part back.

Posted in music, Music Mondays

Music Mondays: Crazy Freestyle

Posted in mood, Quotes

On getting comfortable