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Stop Pretending

We all are guilty at some point in our lives of getting caught up in the idea of something. I have been caught up in an idea that relationships are working, when clearly they are not.

To quite honest, I have been caught up in mixed signals when words speak more true and as of late actions. Here I am settling down to prepare for a relationship that is never gonna happen. Who am I kidding? I need to stop pretending things are as I want them to be.

Hate to sound pitiful but if I’m being honest, I doubt I’m going to be in any relationship any time soon. Why? Because I feel myself always trying to prove that I’m worthy of being picked, worthy to be that someone to someone. Being told I’m a good woman, just never good enough for anyone I want to date. Or not believe anyone who is interested in me. Mostly because most ppl are interested because they want to be with me intimately only. Maybe that’s the vibe I give off. Idk… maybe I just need time to myself.

But honestly, I have tired that and then someone gets my attention. And of course I’m caught up in the idea yet again only to be let down.

Idk guys felt like venting…

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Founder and Co-Host of G.F.T Radio show, and author of my personal blog Unreservedly Me (both on wordpress). I been writing for years so blogging is nothing new to me.

3 thoughts on “Stop Pretending

  1. Trust and believe I know that feeling and it’s so draining to keep trying and feeling like no progress was made. However, wisdom was gained. Experience was gained. And never know how that may look in the future. I’ve learned many of our lack of relationships weren’t always about us but sometimes we’re the tool that aided the other person in living and learning another day. It’s such a chess game but Once I reached that contentment that I’m cool either way then it didn’t feel so stressing. I encourage to keep faith in being content and knowing that you’re enough no matter what the different paths in life have for you. You’re always more than enough! An overflowing light that not everyone has the capacity to shine side by side with.

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