Sunday Thoughts

Although today is mothers day, I spent it with my son who kept me busy like he normally does. My daughter is with her father and his family but she sent me a text and that made me feel special enough. I cried three separate times, I’d like to say it was because I miss my mother because I do. But I think it had everything to do with me. I don’t really wish to celebrate this day, I mean I usually am the one giving gifts to my mom. But I just felt alone today.

As big as my family is I felt alone. I hold up a front as if I’m in bothered by the actions of other but I know I’m hurting. Support seems to be a thin layer wrapped in idk what. I have outsiders who are more supportive and that is crazy to me.

I’m at the point of emotional detachment. But I know that isn’t a great place to be. How do I fix myself..when I feel like no one cares..

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6 thoughts on “Sunday Thoughts

  1. shunpwrites says:

    Wow. I echo your sentiments, strangely enough I’ve felt the same way but have unable to isolate an answer to that burdensome question. It is a feeling that is nothing short of draining, physically, emotionally and spiritually, but I’m seeing the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel.

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  2. Da Absentee says:

    Everyone has the “right” to feel this way. Nothing says you have to be 100% everyday. Emotions and memories are the only reason you felt this way. When your brain is telling you to detach you should. Its the how long part that gets people. Your not suppose to stay in a funk. You are suppose to use the “down” time as reflection. Then use the time away as a spring board to “fight” again. Its ok to be alone sometimes. (Stay Positive)

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