I feel….

I feel everything and nothing,
Numbness and the tips of a thousands knives,
They say what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger,
But what happens when being strong is what makes you feel weak?
Your heart is screaming,
Your mind is racing,
Your drowning while standing still…
And no one seems to understand,
To be lost yet standing right there,
Every emotions running thru you it consumes you,
Looking for the light,
Unable to find it,
The calm,
The calm,
The rest,
Slow breaths,
Heart beat slows,
And you hear,
Nothing yet you feel everything and nothing,
I FEEL.