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I loss my mother is pass week, the day before Thanksgiving to be exact. It was sudden and I still don’t know how I feel. I feel like I have been walking around on autopilot. The initial news was like a blow to the chest, it hurt and I cried the most I’ve cried this year. And if you know me I’m not big on crying, but this shook me to the core. We had been having problems for a while and we recently started talking things seemed to be good and then this happens.

When people say “I’m sorry for your loss” I’m kind dumbfounded. I know they are talking to me and I know why, but part of me refuses to believe this is real. That my mother is no longer here in the physical sense. I can’t bear to put those 3 letters in front of her name and even when other people do, I’m still in denial.

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I came back to work today and present but I’m really not. I’m angry. Like how could this happen to my mom, she was supposed to live forever. I know that seems unrealistic but those were my thoughts. I find comfort knowing that she is at peace, she is no longer suffering physically or mentally.

This weekend she will be laid to rest and I’m dreading the services and whatever comes after this. I need prayer guys.. please pray for me and my family. Thanks in advance.

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11 thoughts on “Mom”

  1. Sorry to hear about your irreplaceable loss, Sunny. Prayers up to you and your fam. I’ve a friend and her family also dealing with the sudden loss of her father on Thanksgiving morning. There are no words to ease the pain, I know from experience, but really wishing you all peace of mind throughout the process.

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  2. Yes, it can really seem unreal. My father passed in November of 2013 and it still seems unbelievable. By focusing on the positive and keeping the positive memory of him alive, I have started to see how this is a useful coping mechanism. The way we think about anything determines how we will feel about it. Yes, we are human beings and we will experience grief in this life; however, we have the ability to transform our pain into power. I will continue to pray for you and your family that God’s grace will shower you all in His love, peace, comfort, joy and prosperity. Be encouraged. As time progresses, you will find that the Lord will help you to manage this painful loss better and better.

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