Unreservedly Me

Just this past Friday I came across something that I was told was happening but didn’t realize how it would effect me.

My ex of 4 months got married. Seeing it felt like a knife cutting my soul. This was someone I saw forever with and wish that things could work. But knew it would never without him going to therapy. All the accusations he threw at me.. and he was the only doing everything he wanted to believe I was.

I won’t lie because even when I knew it wouldn’t work long term with us, I wanted it so badly. I thought I had shed all the tears I was gonna shed, but that one hit me that hard. Guess life happens, even when we don’t want it to.

I know I’m a good woman and deserve someone for me… but at this point I’m good. I don’t want this to change my heart forever but it certainly changed it for now. I’m good off trying to date right now. I need to get back to peace and calm.