Unreservedly Me

I wonder if he knows I battling depression. Idk why I wonder but its little things he does. I can be in a mood and he comes over and says “Hi” loudly and in my face looking me dead in the eye. Other times he just brings all his stuff where I am and plays all while having some body party mostly his feet on me.

I feel bad because I feel like I’m bringing my feelings on to him. So random moments I try and lift my spirits and play but for the most part I just want to sleep.

I miss genuine company but most days I just want the quiet and alone time. I cry silently and loudly at times. Im frustrated more days then most. But I wonder if he knows what’s going on with his mommy.