Maybe I’m one of those folks who needs to let it burn. I feel like I’m hanging on by tread and that tread is being clipped. I truly give up on this thing called love, or the notion of relationship. Maybe it’s simply not in the cards for me.
Maybe I’m being pessimistic…but my personal experiences ring loudly in my mind.
Let me vent though, I maybe end up being one of those women with a whole bunch of cats. Lol nah real talk tho.
We all are guilty at some point in our lives of getting caught up in the idea of something. I have been caught up in an idea that relationships are working, when clearly they are not.
To quite honest, I have been caught up in mixed signals when words speak more true and as of late actions. Here I am settling down to prepare for a relationship that is never gonna happen. Who am I kidding? I need to stop pretending things are as I want them to be.
Hate to sound pitiful but if I’m being honest, I doubt I’m going to be in any relationship any time soon. Why? Because I feel myself always trying to prove that I’m worthy of being picked, worthy to be that someone to someone. Being told I’m a good woman, just never good enough for anyone I want to date. Or not believe anyone who is interested in me. Mostly because most ppl are interested because they want to be with me intimately only. Maybe that’s the vibe I give off. Idk… maybe I just need time to myself.
But honestly, I have tired that and then someone gets my attention. And of course I’m caught up in the idea yet again only to be let down.
Idk guys felt like venting…
The way these summer camps are coming, you’d think I was putting a deposit down on buying a house or car! Lawd!!
Now most of you know my son is autistic so the thought of sending him to any old summer camp is a no go for me. I have to send to a camp suited for his needs.
As a mom, knowing camps fill up fast I have to get a jump start on it and apply for assistance to help pay for camp. Thankfully, my daughter will be working this year a real job. I only have to pay for one, but boy is it expensive.
Looking for camps for children with disabilites is hard enough let alone one that is close. Especially, since I don’t drive and I need to get there quickly.
I realize they need more camps close that have staff that can work with all types of children.
I’m not even gonna say how much this camp is just pray that I get the help I need. Lawd knows I’m not balling like that! 😂😂😂
Mondays, how working folks hate you! We loved the weekend so much and now here you coming ruining our lives! Lol, thats how all folks feel that only work weekdays. We bitch and complain about having to put clothes and wigs on and go to a place where some of us hate.
I don’t mind my job, although some days are challenging than others. I just dont particularly care for some of the people I work with. You know? Their annoying and I hate to hear them talking. But that’s monday through friday so you know. Fuck it, drop two tears in a bucket and chuck it!
I didn’t do much this weekend, I just really hate having to get out of the warm spot in my bed and go out in the cold world. Wind disrespecting ya face and shit. 😂😂😂
BUT I GOTTA PAY THE BILLS, WHICH MEANS SHOWING UP TO WORK!
My mood right now, its way too much going on and I just want my bed and covers. I wanna pretend like somehow it skipped to Friday. 😂😂😂
I know you all have had one of these days. Between limited sleep and general crankiness after the lack of sleep, I either wanna cuss someone out or take a much needed nap until tomorrow at 5am!!
I’m damn sure not cooking once I get home. So it will be quick food for the crew. Knowing myself I may just say fuck dinner!
Until my next vent session…. y’all take care.
CRANKY AND OVER IT!!