Posted in Thoughts

Losing Respect

You ever find yourself in a situation where you feel someone is losing respect for you….

That’s where I am. I’m in a state of letting something go but for some reason seems harder than ever. But I feel all the people around me think Im stupif giving me the side eye, rightfully so. If I was on the outside looking in, I’d be on the same shit.

I’m at the point where I prayed for help because I honestly don’t know how to just walk away. Knowing fully and wholey this situation means me no good.

Idk guys prayers up…. cuz I need help.

Posted in mood, opinions, Personal, random, Reflection


So just an update, I haven’t mediated since the first 2 days I started. Idk I tried but didn’t seem like it worked for me. Because being an emotional mess, I’m horny all the time. Lol 😂🤷🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️.

I debating on getting a buddy, but I think that may be good and bad. My headaches have seemed to slow down from having them everyday and/or waking up with a full blown migraines.

Court dates looming, medical follows and ugh! Part of me wants it all over or to pretend it never happened but it did.

Posted in Personal, random, Reflection

The lies we tell ourselves

We lie to ourselves to make believe that things are okay. They are just bandaids that eventually come off. We cloud our own judgement knowing the hardcore facts. Wake up, see what you already know you see. Stop lying to yourself and living in a make believe world that does not exist.