I feel like I wanna scream or just cry. With no one to vent to or just be there and listen without judgment or their easy way to fix it all. I feel broken and no one around me seems to care or want to check in on me. Even when they do I say I’m fine. I don’t wanna burden anyone with all this hurt I have stored inside of me. I’m search for someone to fill a void no one can feel. I miss me.
So almost didn’t start due to financial aid issues and after working in HR. Payroll specifically I did not want to get any student loans. NOPE!!
So for our jobs cohort we have Business Law 101 and English 101 for 11-12 weeks, ttwice a week. I only have to to take BL 101 because I already have 17 credits for prior course I passed. I like BL… I dont like how my teacher is teaching it. Its clear he wants us to understand but he teaches as if we already know the course. Which we do not. But I wanted to be a lawyer and it seems learning about law is fun for me.
Anyways we have a first test coming up and I believe it is open book.
So this year not only will my crew be going back to school, but I will be joining them. My daughter will be in her senior year and taking some college credit course so when she does graduate she can have a dual graduation. My son will be going to 1 grade!!! First year fully potty trained!!! And last but certainly not least, I will be going for my associates degree. Now I have a few credits under my belt, pre pregnancy with my daughter.
My job is offering one class at work, one will be on the college campus. I can take more courses as well.
Hopefully we can all put thru this year with flying colors.
You ever accused someone of doing something, only for someone to call you to the carpet for the same shit?
Yeah, I just had a conversation like that. I don’t like when I have a real conversation and people aren’t being 💯 with you. In the conversation I realize I need to put some things in order to move pass something that has been pulling on me for a while. Probably gonna be the hardest conversation I’ve had in a while but it most certainly needs to happen. I have been avoiding it like the plague because I don’t want to open any old wounds or have the same conversation to have the same result but it must be done.
Pray for me… feel like David going into the lions den.