Today was a tuff day for me, well yesterday since its 1 am. It started out fine but I allowed people to effect my mood. I cried a few times in a room by myself. You ever just be done…. like exhausted from having the same conversations over and over again. You are too drained to exchange the words, so your tears just take over because you can’t?
Thats where I was. I cried alone hiding under my covers and cooking dinner thinking about the shit. I just need peace and when you have no where to go to get it.
I can’t look at myself in the mirror half the time. I look at me and just feel defeated. Sorry I just need to get this out of my head. Im fighting battles I can’t win.
So this year not only will my crew be going back to school, but I will be joining them. My daughter will be in her senior year and taking some college credit course so when she does graduate she can have a dual graduation. My son will be going to 1 grade!!! First year fully potty trained!!! And last but certainly not least, I will be going for my associates degree. Now I have a few credits under my belt, pre pregnancy with my daughter.
My job is offering one class at work, one will be on the college campus. I can take more courses as well.
Hopefully we can all put thru this year with flying colors.
I debated back and forth about posting this to my social media accounts. Why you ask? Because once people know who your dating everyone wants to say he used to date so and so. Or she used to date so and so. It doesn’t bother me much, but I like to bask in just being happy. People see us together so there is no need to gain acceptance via a social media outlet. Somethings are better when you in it. You know?
Anyways, I’m glad I met this man last year. It’s been a year and he still makes me laugh, smile and make me feel beautiful even on my fat days. 😂😂 The best part is we make each happy. He test my thought process and challenges me to think outside of the box. As do I, for him.