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The Good. The Bad. The Ugly. Relationshits. 08/11 by G-F-T Radio | Podcasting Podcasts

Join us for what is definitely going to be an amusing show. We are talking about the good, the bad, the ugly in relationshits. Asshole baby moms to asshole baby dads. The headaches and tom foolery we deal with once its over. Join in by calling us (657) 383-1155. Also tweet us during the show @gft_radio #Relationshits

Source: The Good. The Bad. The Ugly. Relationshits. 08/11 by G-F-T Radio | Podcasting Podcasts

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textgramSo in recent events I kicked myself to the curb. No, you didn’t read that sentence wrong. Well it’s a confusing situation. Now for most of you know I was in a relationship, was as in past tense. Yes, I do love him but we had a conversation and let’s just say there was a communication issue.

In a recent conversation he pointed out that my letters (he is in jail), I haven’t really said much and that I seem to have run out of things to say. I told him in a phone conversation that it was not that I didn’t want have anything to say, because I did I just wanted to spare his feelings. It hurt him that my mom passed and he was unable to be there for me. I thought why keep bringing that up making him feel like a piece of shit. So I didn’t talk about it. I didn’t really want to talk about it out loud. But if that is what he wanted I would do that.

So I finally got the courage to talk about it and as I shared how I felt and what was on my mind. I choose my words carefully because he is one of those people to take your words apart and somehow it goes left. In this letter I told him he was being selfish and the last thing I need is that, I also needed time. So after he finally get this letter, he wants me to explain what I meant by needing time. I explained I need to time to myself from everyone. Since my mom passed I have not had time to myself.  I needed that to process this all, but as I wrote I broke. I couldn’t stop crying because writing about it made me deal with everything. I left work and all and cried all that day. I needed that cry whether I wanted it or not.

As we are talking he mention this song… Cue Marvin Gaye:

After this I picked up what he was saying… so as the next day passed he finally called and he acted like things were fine. I told him I listened to the song, so what was the meaning behind it. He acted as if I was just imagining things. I’m like every time you brought a song up in our conversations that expressed your feelings, also at the end of our last conversation you basically asked me why were we together.

So I just said, let’s just end this before we end up hating each other. He kept telling me he was over having the same conversation over and over. And honestly emotionally I couldn’t keep dealing with if he was gonna break up with me everyday.

So even though he attempted to break up with me, I said the words. And he said ” I expected this.” Which pissed me off but I still remained calm… haven’t talked to him although I sent a card for his birthday from me and the kids (one being our son).

So I kicked myself to the curb.