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I feel….

I feel everything and nothing,
Numbness and the tips of a thousands knives,
They say what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger,
But what happens when being strong is what makes you feel weak?
Your heart is screaming,
Your mind is racing,
Your drowning while standing still…
And no one seems to understand,
To be lost yet standing right there,
Every emotions running thru you it consumes you,
Looking for the light,
Unable to find it,
The calm,
The calm,
The rest,
Slow breaths,
Heart beat slows,
And you hear,
Nothing yet you feel everything and nothing,

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I feel

Everything and Nothing

Why do I sign myself up for things I know mean me no good. I feel like I’m going crazy. I have explained and explained and the same result. I’m at a point where I feel like they do understand but want to continue the narrative that me expressing myself is the issue and I’m crazy. Like 🤔

I’m starting to second guess myself. I’m at a loss for words because honestly what else is there to say when you aren’t being heard?

I feel defeated 😞. I like quit… I say this and go right back like an entire dummy…. I’ve been praying for the light at the end of the tunnel to guide me out.