I keep crying…. I really am sitting her in tears because I can’t trust myself to protect my own heart.
That’s sad. I feel I can’t trust anyone or their intentions as it relates to me. I don’t wanna feel like this.
Day: October 10, 2020
Mentally Not There
I’m a state of mixed feelings. I want to feel love and affection but at the same time I just can’t actually deal with it. I feel like as much as I want it, I’m in a vulnerable state and I don’t want to dismiss the usual red flags or be taken advantage of.
Its not even the person per se, its more of a fear of being blinded like last time and getting involved with someone who means me no good. Even if they originally had the best intentions. Idk…. I can’t figure out why I feel that way? I’m in no rush to jump into anything.
Can anyone understand?
