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Fix What’s Broken

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I wish I could say my life was picture perfect but it’s not. I have many ups and down. In the last few months, let’s say 6 it has been the hardest. From dealing with preteen drama, my mother and I clashing over things she said while off her meds, and dealing with my love life (dating a man who was is locked up and fighting for his freedom. I know most may think that is the biggest problem but to me it’s not.

The issue with my mother is the bigger picture. Dealing with someone who has mental illness is like walking amongst a glass ridden field. You never know what you are gonna walked into. She gets in to these bad ways, where you damned if you try to get help and damned if you don’t. One more occasions then I’d like to remember we have bumped heads. The last two times lead to drastic measure. Once she call DYFS on my sisters and me for seeking help when she was off her meds. Having DYFS at your house on Christmas Eve inspecting and talking to your child about if I’m drugs, which it was clear I wasn’t. Also, making sure she was not being neglected. Yeah, caused a major riffed.

The last time involved my mother lashing out on my now 13-year-old daughter. Which took me to another place one that I will touch base on later. But in her mind she made up a lie and projected it on my daughter which made me not want either of my kids around her. But how does one fix things? You can’t say things like that and then say well I wasn’t on my meds. That doesn’t make things fine. At this point I don’t know how to approach her without her being defensive or getting to the bottom of her words.

It’s been almost 2 months since I have seen my mother. And I know her grandkids want to see how but how does one fix the problem?